Oh Dear...Not Another One.

How stupid do these spam-bots think I am?!!?

(from my fabulous email account)

Good Day

I am moving to stay in the USA for 12 weeks
may be we can meet each other and have some fun time
or may be more. I am looking forward to getting your message
to my personal email cuttie@realmeet.info.
I will reply with a p.ic.
I am cute girl

How nice. (sarcasm)

Job Interview

Well, today was my jorb interview. :-) I think it went really well. Olsten is going to give my resume to Feed the Children for a position there. If I don't get it, I will just continue to check back to see if there are any openings.

On my way up, I heard "Walking on Sunshine." It reminded me of Leigh Ann.

I ate lunch at the Bourbon Street Cafe in Bricktown. Yummmm. I had their Lobster Bisque. Good stuff. I need to learn how to make that.

I went to Marble Slab after that. I had Cheesecake ice cream with Kit-Kat. Mmmmm. While I was there I heard the B.C. Clark Christmas jingle. I squee'd.

That's about it. My dad is having an arteriogram today. You might pray for him.

I'm Back

Sorry I haven't written for like, a week. I have had a lot going on. Plus, I don't have Internet access at my house, and probably won't for a few days. I am still able to check my email from my cell phone, though. Plus I can check it at the library. So I am good to go.

I am STILL sick. Still. I spent half the night in my parents' new house hacking up both lungs. Plus it was cold. Sigh. But we got my furniture moved in today. Tonight I will move in the rest of my clothes. It feels good to be wearing something other than a hoodie and jeans.

I gave away something like 22 boxes of clothes, old toys and other stuff...and it's still gonna be a tight squeeze. Sigh. At least, I won't be living there long.

I have a job interview tomorrow. Wish me the best!

Eh

Still not feeling great. I think I am still gonna go to Ingathering tonight, though.

Let's see...Thursday is Thanksgiving, and I will be spending it with my dad and stepmom, as well as that side of the family. It should be a lot of fun.

Speaking of Dad, they are going to start scheduling tests for his surgery. One test isn't scheduled until Dec. 9, though. That's way too long. So they are going to try to reschedule.

That's about it.

Ick

I don't feel great right now. My nose is stopped up and I am tired. Sigh. I just got back from Asher delivering books, and now I just want to sleep for 23 hours. Ergh.

Misti and Brian told me about a movie they saw, Walk the Line. It's that movie about Johnny Cash. They said it was REALLY good. Now I'ma have to see it! I also want to see Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. Too many movies.

Well, I am in the process of trying to move. Yesterday I got rid of a bunch of clothes I don't wear/don't fit/etc. I fully expect to get rid of a bunch more stuff. If anyone is fond of anything, let me know!

Mel G. is leaving for Isreal tomorrow. I would love to go. That would be uber-cool. (Sorry.) I'll miss you, G!

I acquired a couple of CD's a couple of days ago. They are by Steve Winwood. I always have loved old songs like that. I also got a couple of Christmas CDs. Now I can listen to Christmas music in July. (KIDDING!)

Question

Just a quick question....

Who the heck is paying off the Texas Tech officials?

Grrrr.... ::pissed::

Feeling the Love

Wow...so Scott is coming into town after Christmas! I can hardly wait to see him again. Hi, Scott! Thanks for praying for me, buddy. :-) I also got the sweetest card from Jenn in the mail today. Thanks Jenn!

My dad is doing better today. The doctors gave him Lasix, and that helped with the water retention. He's still in the hospital, last I checked. They are going to transfer him to the Heart Hospital for his surgery.

As for me...I'm hanging in there. I read an article on how to cope with Holiday Stress. Believe me, after the last couple of weeks, I will take Holiday Stress any day. Between moving, job-hunting, and my dad's illness...well, it's been hard. But the Lord is good and He will help me through this.

Tonight I work a short shift at Sonic, then I am gonna hang with some girls in my Community Group. They are having a Girl's Night. Hopefully my car won't have Vaseline under the handles. (Hi, Booker!)

Hell

Well, I still haven't heard anything about Dad. My older sister said she will call if she hears anything.

The last two weeks have been hell beyond anything I could imagine. Not knowing if my dad is going to survive the night, the week...it's been scary.

He had been doing OK the last couple of days...then he starts having breathing problems.

The worst part is not knowing. It's hard...and I am afraid.

Dad

My dad is back in the hospital. He is having breathing problems. I don't know how serious it is yet.

Please pray for him.

Thanks.

Interview

Well, my interview went pretty well. I mean to say, there were some good points and some not-so-good points. Here are some of the questions they asked:

What are your strengths?
What are your weaknesses?
What are your long-term goals?
Describe a time you had to work with a difficult person.
Describe a time you had to work with a team. (This was a toughie. I rarely work with teams on anything. Ho hum.)
What kind of rewards are you seeking from your job?

I am typing this for my own benefit, so that I will have better answers to these next time (if I don't get the job).

Tonight I am going with my mom, stepdad, brother, both sisters, and four nieces to eat dinner at the Delta Cafe. Mmmmmmmm....Cajun chicken sandwich....(drool)

Interview

Tomorrow I have a job interview. I will be interviewing with AllState in Newcastle. Wish me the best of luck!

I will also be coming up to the city...I will be looking at the State Department and other places. Pray that my poor car holds up.

Speaking of, I put some antifreeze in my car today (since the weather will dip below 25 tonight). Ended up spilling half of the antifreeze all over my engine, it was so windy out. Grrrr.

Mental Process

I am looking for a full-time job. In earnest. I am also trying to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life.

I have made one decision...I want to write a book. I already have a general idea on what I want to write about. I had a dream some time ago....I always thought I should write it out. But I never have...until now. I can't write down the concept, but I will be glad to tell you about it, if you would like. It's really neat. When it is finished, I guarantee the warm fuzzies.

Meanwhile, while I am waiting to get on Oprah's Book Club, I will need full-time employment. That's where the mental process comes in.

Generally, I have been seeing employment as a means to an end. The end being a paycheck. Well, I would like to enjoy my job. The question remains, "What would I enjoy?"

I don't know.

"Well, what are you passionate about?"

Huh? Well, nothing, really...

"Don't give me that."

Well, I do enjoy spending time with my friends...

"Yes. You love them, right?"

Of course I do!

"Well, that's a starting point, believe it or not. You like to make a difference in people' s lives, help them out?"

Hmmmmm....not bad, brain.

"Yeah, I know. Sooooo...you probably want a job where you can impact others. Like...work with children, maybe? Senior adults? The poor? Single moms? These are just examples, of course..."

Cool. So...what else?

At that point, my brain started thinking about other things. But there will be more soon.

Woo-hoo!

I just hit 3000. Yay!

Wow

So, like...people actually read this site. Coolness. I am touched. :-)

Welllllll....my Dad is still in the hospital. They biopsied the spots on his lungs, and they are pretty sure it isn't cancer. That is some good news. They are going to do a scan tomorrow to see if there could be more spots. Then they are going to operate on his heart.

Still, it is pretty scary surgery. I am trying to keep my spirits up, though. Last night I went to stay with Melissa. A whole bunch of us went to play glow-golf at Quail Springs. Then we went to watch "The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants." Very good movie. Now I'ma have to get the book.

This morning, I went to Council Road. I went for a short walk...just to get my thoughts together. I love fall.

To everyone...thank you. I have gotten so many emails, phone calls...people walking up to me and telling me they are praying for me...that means the world.

Hard

Wow...my life has gone a complete 180 this week. I will never, NEVER complain again about having nothing to write about. Ever. Believe me, it is much better than the current situation.

The weird thing is, I feel like I am a different person now. Like...I dunno. It's hard to think that your loved ones may not be there tomorrow. It puts a whole new perspective on things.

Today I go back to work...maybe. I still haven't heard if they have biopsied the spots on Dad's lungs.

Update

Here is what I know now:

1.) The sagging of Dad's face was caused by Bell's Palsy. He has an infected lymph node. They are biopsying it.
2.) He has a thorasic aorta aneurysm that is 7 cm. (That's 2 1/2 inches for those of us that don't do metric.) This will require surgery to fix.
3.) Today I find out that he has spots on his lungs. This could be cancer. They are biopsying those as well. If it is cancer, they have to decide if the surgery will be worth it.

Needless to say, this paints a VERY bleak picture. Please pray for my family.

Thanks.

Dad

My dad was hospitalized last night. He had a heart attack.

Please pray for him.

Thanks.

Helloooooo...

Is anyone here today? Sigh...

Soooo...I am moving soon. My parents close on their new house next Thursday. Right before Thanksgiving. Hmmmm.

That's about it here.

I Never....

Last night I went to Game Night. We spent about an hour and a half playing "I Never." In that game, people sit around in a circle. A person in the middle says, "I never did such and such." Then, if you HAD done it, you have to move to another chair. Most of the "I nevers" were very amusing. One of mine was, "I never cheered for the Texas Longhorns." Only one person moved on that one.

What else happened this weekend....Well, I got a flat tire. Again. And the people at Wal-Mart said it wasn't covered under my warranty, since my alignment was off. (insert rant word of choice here)

After Game Night, G and I went over to her new house. (Actually, she and Misti moved in with Cindy. I hadn't seen it since they moved in.) We watched a very...interesting episode of CSI.

Schtuff

Yay! I am back up again!!!

Hi Tim! Glad to see you on here! I loved your post on Falls Creek.

I wish I were at Fusion right about now. Dang employment!

Uhm...it's kind of hot in here. It's not anywhere as bad as it was yesterday, though. Maybe it's because I am wearing short sleeves.

That's about it...I am fixing to go eat, then go to my other job. If anything profound happens, I will let you know.

Bridge Over Troubled Water

This is quite possibly my favorite Simon and Garfunkel song of all time. My brother used to sing it all the time.

When you’re weary, feeling small,
When tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all;
I’m on your side. when times get rough
And friends just can’t be found,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.

When you’re down and out,
When you’re on the street,
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you.
I’ll take your part.
When darkness comes
And pains is all around,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.

Sail on silvergirl,
Sail on by.
Your time has come to shine.
All your dreams are on their way.
See how they shine.
If you need a friend
I’m sailing right behind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.

Trust

Today I saw that I still have a couple of bruises on me from Falls Creek. Those bruises reminded me of my trip up and down some of the rockiest hills in the great state of Oklahoma…and my increase in faith in the folks who helped me get up those hills.

See…I am not a nature person in the least. I prefer to be on solid ground. But I decided to hike with the gang so I could get to know people better. Plus, quite sadly, I needed the exercise.

What I found was that I was always picked last in PE for a reason. See…I have no athletic ability whatsoever. My interest in sports is limited to what I can watch on ESPN. If I had attempted to climb those hills alone, who knows what shape I would be in.

But I didn’t. And I wasn’t without help. Everywhere I went, I had about four guys giving me a hand, making sure I didn’t fall on my face…or worse. Even when I was out of breath, my group encouraged me to rest and take deep breaths.

For me, this was a huge step of faith. See, I didn’t know these folks that well before. Even now I am just beginning to get to know them. But I had to trust these guys…that they would not let me come into harm.

Same with all my other relationships in my new church. Except for a couple of folks whom I knew before, I am just beginning to develop relationships. For me, that is a huge risk. But being alone would be riskier.

To the guys who helped me up the mountain…thank you. You guys have shown me that I can, indeed, trust my new friends.

The same thing with God. Yes, God is going to put us on some steep mountains. He may challenge us. He may even allow us to get a few "bruises" in life.

But he's never going to leave us. And he will always be reaching out his hand for us to grab. It is up to us whether to grab it or go it alone.

I know what I would decide to do.

Fall

This morning I sat outside my house for awhile. I noticed that a lot of the trees are beginning to turn. It makes me happy and sad at the same time.

I was kind of bummed last night. See, I was really missing my Village friends. I mean, Council Road is going all right, but it's different. Some things there hadn't worked out the way I had planned it, and it's a bit discouraging. Then I talked to Misti last night. I told her that at retreat, I actually prayed for it to be 2003 again.

She told me, "Yes, it's sad that those times are over now, but God didn't have to give them to you at all. But He did, so you can be thankful for that."

I guess that's true. Maybe I will make new close friends at Council. You just never ever know.

Some Things

Well, the other day I bought me four new CD's. (Did I mention my love for music?) I purchased the Footloose and the Dirty Dancing soundtracks. Now I need Napoleon Dynamite.

Speaking of, here are some of my favorite quotes:

"Whatever I feel like I wanna do, GOSH!"

"The worst day of my life, what do you think?"

"I caught you a delicious bass."

Hee hee hee!

If anyone wants to buy me Hornets tickets, let me know. :-) :-)

Sports Update

OU: Hallelujah…only one win away from a bowl. Maybe they’ll run the board and go to the Cotton Bowl. That would be uber-cool.

Nebraska coach Bill Callahan: Wow…last year, he called Oklahomans f***ing hillbillies. This year, he makes a cut-throat gesture at an official. On the other hand…who among us has not said unpleasant words when upset? Darn conscience!

OSU vs. texas: Ick. Once again, OSU was ahead by a lot at the half. Once again, I gloated and started doing my happy dance. Once again, texas rallies to win by a lot. I still like Mike Gundy better than Les Miles, though.